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[03/23 @ 4:36pm] |
yo bitches what's up? i always wanted to say that but it just sounds so fucking retarded when i say it in real life.
so, im bored. i dont have any school work and schools out and all my friends are responsible types that have shit to do. i have work but not for another hour and a half. so...im here. on lj. big surprise. i was going through my favorite fics again and i have favorites in every category imaginable but i think cj was right when she said "BLUE" was one of the best OVERALL. like...i cant explain, im not good with words and shit...thats why i curse so much but everyone needs to read this fucking fic. now.
(OMG she's at it again...)
and, i made a new friend today. lol i feel like a fucking jr high student with a crush but whatever. with my luck she's probably straight anyway...though my gaydar was fucking dinging like it never has before. lol
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[03/18 @ 8:13pm] |
so now...i just had the least productive day ever. and something about that sentence doesnt sound right but...what ever. my brain was nto working. i had a hangover from hell. yea i know bad me. bad me. but my head still fucking hurts like hell. blah. day after my birtday. all i can think is thank goodness its saturday and i dont got nothing to do. im usin' douple negatives...something must be wrong. and im not going to delete it. i hate the backspace button almost as much as i hate the shitf key. i rarely ever use either of them.
now im tired. i was going to read but. my headache said no. i was going to watch some tv. but the lights to bright. and even this computer light is not helping. does THAT sentence even make sense.... idunno.
sleep time.
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[03/16 @ 11:43pm] |
kay so i found a thingy. it wasn't a quiz. ive given up on quizzes...for now at least.
so heres the new thing.
ASSIGN A FICTIONAL CHARACTER TO AS MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR F-LIST AS POSSIBLE.
i wanna do. so i'm doing it.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) serene_cj: figures id start with you. i give you scarlett o'hare. from gone with the wind. you are my scarlett o'hare. you're very strong...determined. i wont go into everything here on the internet but. i dont think ive ever met anyone quite like you and...you really NOT like scarlett in a lot of ways but...i loved her strong, determined sassy...you know and i love you too. you remind me of each oter even if she's more cold hearted than you and maybe a bit more stuck up. much loves to you hunns.
jason: I don't know if you even have an lj but i had to include you on here. for you i chose...well, this is going to sound really bad but for you i chose dave pelzer. from 'a child called "it"' Yyou remind me of him. i know better than to say anything further but do you have to be so quiet? i remember once when you got wasted and you were like the funnest(i said it's a word so its a word dammit) queerest homo alive and it was sooo fucking fun. but youre just so quiet other times.
demetrius72: //sigh// and to you i give ron weasley. yeah. i do. if i were ever going to be with a guy it'd be you. yup. it would.
cheeky_weasley: I hardly know you really but what ive seeen really, really reminds me of junie b. jones. instead of explaining, you get a few quotes.
"my little brother's name is ollie. i love him a lot except i wish he didn't live in my actual house."
"we didn't actually need a baby in our house but no one even consulted me"
" 'yeah, grace but you cant be the bestest winner because i said it first, thats why.' grace did a frown."
"I patted grace's shoulder, very sympathetic. 'you don't take criticism well, do you grace?'"
i guess you have to read the books to get it. and obviously junie b. is really young...but you do remind me of her. the bluntness i mean. not the spoiled bratness or the blatant immaturity //shrug//
otterystgrint I give you
pacey whitter. the only one not from a book. when i read your post i hear his voice. dont know what it is.
do this for as many people as possible on your f-list and tell you friends to as well. see what everyone thinks of you
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| You Think You're Smart? Good, cuz I need help... |
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so ive been doing quizzes and i did one that was called 'what is your kink?' It said mine was BDSM. I know what it means...that is to say, i could recognize it if it was happening right in front of me or if i was reading about it (like cj's draco/theodore bdsm fic that was fucking hotta). but i was curious to know what it actually meant...id look it up but im short on time and i was here anyway soo...help?
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[02/28 @ 2:19am] |
id sing but i figured that since its supposed to be your birtday, i'd spare you. so...ahem.
Happy Fucking Birtday, serene_cj!!!111!1!1!1!1!
look i even took time to capitalize that. and you know how i hate the shift key. so its 2:30 in the morning so i probably wont see you til to morrow. actually im pretty sure i wont. i hope youre sleeping well. uhhh lol. i did buy you something. its so girly but...i am kinda nervous. hope youll like it and im half tempted to call you and ask you stupid questions like 'do you like green?' 'no?' 'shit!!!' and then id go back and buy you something different. //sighs// but i think youll like it. im babbling arent i? shit.
so i decided to get you an internet present to. you better fucking like it. ahem.
i love quizzes. love em love em love em. so i took this quiz and i decided to enter you information and see what i came up with. yours is better than mine //pouting//
so...do you want your gift?? i bet you do.
( Cj's Internet Birtday gift )
damn. id fuck you. lol.
ha!!! so not fair. kink was the highest for me. but self control was the lowest. kissing i scored something around fifty. yeah fucking right. really, c, im mores than a fifty, huh. youd know //grins cheekily//
i think all that info is right //hopes// i mean most of it i KNOW but...i couldnt remember if your fave colore was purple or blue. or soemthing
so i love you alotta lottalottalottalotta. lotta
lotta. and i cant wait til tomorrow when i can come over at a completely unreasonable hr and wake you up to start the day. im going to miss you mostest when i leave. duh. we're together all the fucking time and when we're not, we talk on theinternet. do you think we have co-dependency issues. whatever the fuck.
i feel like i should say something sweet or something but i dont know what id say. youre always so sweet and sometimes its annoying but ive learned to love you anyway. alottas. not kiddin'. im tryin'a be serious. im tryin real hard. so, right, you know. youre my best friend. and i think im one of yours. i hope. you were (soo past tense) my first uh crush or soemthing like that. ahem. and i loves you. ive said that a hundred times. i muzt mean it then.
SO BEST OF WISHES DAMMIT. AND, JASON, IF YOU SEE THIS YOUD BETTER FUCKING POST. HAVE YOU EVER POSTED OR DO YOU JUST USE YOUR JOURNAL TO STALK PEOPLE. SERIOUSLY DUDE. POST AND WISH CJ A HAPPY BIRTHDAY. REMEMBER WAHT SHE DID FOR YOURS? I DO, LUCKY BASTARD. SHOW HER SOME FUCKING LOVE.
I ♥ MY CJ!!!!
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[02/26 @ 7:38am] |
i seen a commentary on television about gay teenagers. SUCH BULLSHIT. quote: "being gay has given me more freedom to be who I am and feel comfortable around others and be accepted. i don't think i could if i was straight."
igain, i say bullshit. i mean, i kind of get it...sort of. If I twist the words a bit, then I get it. if you gay and you pretending that your straight, then of course, admitting you're gay would give you more freedom to be who you are.
However, what she said was being gay gave her more freedom to be who she was. you can be who you are if you're straight too. if you really are straight. the way she said it made it seem like being gay was a choice and how it was this years 'cool' thing to do. the whole commentary sounded like one big fucking infomercial. like "hey, everybody, jump on the bandwagon and be gay...it's like the new black" what the fuck ever. and it certainly hasnt madae me feel more comfortable around others. its been long enough that the fact that im a lesbian isn't the first thing i think of when i meet new people and im not sure it ever was. i just think it's...part of me. like the fact that i bite my nails. im not going to introduce myself like 'hi, my names latecia, and im a lesbian' anymore than i'll say 'hi, im latecia, and i bite my nails' it sounds stupid and neither of those things are ALL that i am. but this chick acted so...fake. like the whole thing is scripted and all these gay/lesbian kids felt the same way and i had to raise my eybrows at the screen. the truth is i dont feel more comfortable around others...mostly i feel the same but if ever i do feel different it's not because im MORE comfortable. its because im UNcomfortable.
and accepted? bullshit. if ever there was a way to find out who your real friends are... and who actually enjoys those awkward silences that just pop up outta nowhere when you tell someone your gay. not me. but ive learned to just wait for them to pass. like, while i wait for them to process it, i go over the yankees game or some shit. not really but i have learned how to NOT get offended by them.
also, i thought i hated the way that the only people who were okay with my being a dyke were the same people that pitied me. they thought that i was an outcast or someshit. so stupid. they sit there and say stuff like 'i wish it was easier for gay teenagers to fit in' but they're just adding to the problem. it's like theyre sayin 'youre gay, you must be different...you must be an outcast' oh, fuck off id be the same way if i was straight, cept id be with guys. you wouldnt feel sorry for me if i was a straight out cast. dumbasses...i probably shouldnt call them that but. really.
anyway, even more than i hate that, i HATED the people on this commentary that made being gay sound like it was BETTER than being straight (so what if i think it IS better...my problem is with their reasoning).
i hated that show. i dont know why i watched it...call it morbid fascination.
and i think i might be one of those people who constantly contradicts themselves. i just feel like, if im 'DIFFERENT', it's not because im a carpet muncher. id be just the same if i was straight.
and just because im gay doesnt make me more honest than heteros (pains me to say that, im a total heterophobe) really some of them are just as honest. some of them have been through far worse shit than i have, so go feel sorry for them dammit.
and worse, that whole, 'be gay, it's cool, easy, and a great way to be accepted' fuck that. FUCK THAT BULLSHIT.
yeah, i said it. ill say it again
IVE NEVER HEARD SO MUCH BULLSHIT IN ONE DAY. EVER. EVER NEVER EVER NEVER. NEVER NEVER NEVER.
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| Picture Heavy. Queer AF heavy. |
[02/25 @ 4:03am] |
i'm all packed 'n im not even leaving for another couple of weeks. must mean im excited. i cant walk by my suitcase without putting something new in it. im going to end up taking my entire apt with me. lol.
jicie, when i got onto yahoo messenger i found an offline message from you. i hardly use my email and it was actually just lucky that i got on messenger. so write me here unless its personal. if it is, then send it to me at hotmail. i rarely check my yahoo unless i know in advance that im supposed to be getting something. but i did read it. and thank you. i will.
NOW
THREE FUCKING DAYS TIL WE CELEBRATE CJ. the caps lock button is easier than the shift key...
right. i stole these from your site, cj, and i wanted to post them here cuz im in love...and im bored and i think a pic spam'll cheer me up some. i resized them so...a bit of distortion...
Note: Everything under the cut is SLASH...if that offends you...then what the hell are you doing at my journal?
( They from your screen caps, C, )
that is all. id post some melanie/lindsay(omg//pants// i have the biggest derangedfan crush on melanie) and now i crave queer as folk. i need to buy the fucking dvds.
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| Ain't love a kick in the head....... |
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My head keeps spinnin'
I go to sleep and keep grinnin'
if this is just the beginnin'
my life is gonna be
BEAUTIFUL
i've sunshine enough to spread
it's just like the fella said
tell me quick
ain't that a kick in the head.
OH I love that song. and i'm happy. super happy. cuz it came. and im going to college. yay. im going. my back up school rejected me but i got accepted to the one i actually wanted to go to. so yay. even with the time i had to miss from high school...im still going. i feel like singing. i cant sing. but yayyyyy. i can fucking breathe now. yay. yay. yay. omg, im so happy. i start next term. im still happy. yay. yay.
YAY, dammit sing with me.
how lucky can one [girl] be
i kissed her and she kissed me
like a fella once said
'ain't that a kick in the head'
the room was completely black
i hugged her and she hugged back
like a sailor said, quote;
'ain't that a hole in the boat'.
my head keeps spinnin
i got to sleep and keep grinnin'
if this is just the beginnin
my life is gonna be
beautiful
ive sunshine enough to spread
its just like the fella said
tell me quick
and that a kick in the head
Like the fella once said:
"Ain't that a kick in the head?"
Like the sailor said quote:
"Ain't that a hole in a boat?"
My head keeps spinnin',
I go to sleep and keep grinnin'
If this is just the beginnin'
My life is gonna be beautiful. (I hate the fucking shift key. im done using it. those last three stanza's were a bitch)
she's tell me, we'll be wed
she's picked out a king sized bed
i couldnt feel any better or id be sick
tell me quick
oh, aint that a kick
tell me quick
aint love a kick in the head-----------
I FUCKING LOVE DEAN MARTIN.
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| Slash of the overwhelmingly cute and oh so very BOY variety. |
[02/21 @ 12:38am] |
Recently, Serene_Cj asked everyone on her F-list to read a certain fic and reccommend it on their journal's if they thought it was good. So, I am.
OMG why the fuck hadn't I read this sooner. //dies// I was ENTRANCED. Oidajkdsa,. Yeah, it was that good...I think I'm getting better at using the shift key but that's entirely beside the point. The POINT is that if you like Slash...and if you like fics with confused boys in denial, that are going through that awkward teenage faze then you have to read "Blue" by MizzMarvel. NOW. RIGHT FUCKING NOW. Seriously, dont even read the rest of what I have to say today, just click the fucking link.
I defy you not to like this fic.
Blue By mizzmarvel So far, I think the rating is around PG-13 for language and vague sexual context but OMG!!!!!111!!!//crazedfan//!!!
Still not convinced??????
Let a friend of mine convince you
( UNDER THE CUT>>> URGENT!! Read this, Dammit!!! )
and Cj goes on and on (she's the loud mouth type). But really, she isn't lying. That fic literally makes my heart flutter. And she was actually telling the truth when she said you dont have to read the books to understand the fic. you dont. i haven't. and I loved it still. That's actually the reason that I cut the name of the book from the excerpt I took from Cj's journal. I didnt want the fandom to turn you away right when you seen what it was. Now, please give it a chance, i dont believe ive ever seen my partner in crime this hysterical over a fic that isnt part of the Harry Potter fandom. Now go!!!!!!//shoves//
I ask those that actually read this, to give the fic a chance and rec it if you think it's worth it.
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[02/19 @ 1:43am] |
Sunday, so no mail today. i feel like my fucking letter will never get here. I keep asking odd, anxious questions like 'you think my application got lost in the mail?' or some shit like that. no matter how much i tell myself that my academic record speaks for itself and that i really have nothing to worry about, i cant help but fucking worry. ive bitten my nails down so far that they're bleeding. not sure when that happened but i went to bite them today and...nothing there. nervous habit. I just wish it would get here, whether it be an acceptance or rejection...I dont care //lying through her fucking teeth// k, i do care but damn the suspense is going to kill me. Fuck, i scored a 1500 on my SAT's(yeah, C, I beat your score so...well id brag but im too nervous) i shouldn't have to go through this shit.
I really dont think ive ever been this stressed. ever. even if it does come im going to die of the stress before it gets here.
worse yet, this is doing nothing for my yicky feelings for my mom. there's this airy feeling in my chest and i think it might mean that i want to cry. but i wont. you know i think i might need to see a psychiatrist. or something. whatever, i need some kind of fucking therapy. or maybe. i think i just need some 'girl time'. lol, not like that, C, so stop looking at me that way. though...now that i think of it. //shakes head//
or maybe i just need some nice gay porn. lol. which is odd. you know, i think its highly likely that im a gay man stuck in a lesbians body. or something. except no. 'cause being a gay man would mean i wouldnt be sleeping with women. scary thought. lol. k, i think i feel a bit better now. //is off to watch some Queer as Folk for good measure// you've got me hooked on that show, Cj. i havent watched it in like a week. maybe thats whats wrong with me. maybe im going through withdrawals. im calling you right now to get you to come over and watch it with me. and youll come even if your busy. and then youll be pissed off when you read this later. lol. //hugs and pecks cheek//
...almost forgot. 9 Days left
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Much love.
Big blowout with my charents. FUCK. My mother really does make things harder than they really need to be. And only she knows exactly what to say to piss me off but...FUCK. I really do love her but...really all I can think of to say is..>FUCK. I'm really upset.
But 10 days Cj. I love you. We're celebrating come the 28th
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[02/16 @ 7:20pm] |
=//totally hating this new 'rich text mode'// Blah, nothings working. I hate it. Really hate it. What the fuck is going on? Grrr!!!! No colors, the lj user button isn't working and neither is the cut one. I have to format everything by myself //whining// which isn't bad on it's own but I had to start over because it still didnt fucking work because I had it on 'rich text mode'. Erg.
Jicie. GC! //has no idea how you actually spell your name...the first right?// Where the fuck are you? And why the fuck is a certain mutual friend of ours avoiding talking about you. It's aggravating.
Cj //coughs// 12 days left. Much love. And by the way, I'm posting it...//grins//
//sighs// LJ is pissing me off but it's still a million times better than myspace, in my opinion so I'll suck it up and Deal with it. Right so, five minute fic.
( Fucking Insomniac-- Harry/Ron fic, R )
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So, really, I'll take it down if you want me to, C, but what's the point?
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[02/15 @ 9:11pm] |
Second post in one night. Second post in a little over an hour. Yes, i know i have a problem. My name is Tia and I am addicted to the internet. Damn.
Had to get on because while I was replying to a certain someone's comment, I realized that her birthday's coming up. She hasn't said a damn thing about it and I ALMOST (emphasis on the almost) forgot. But I didnt. So, I'm doing a countdown. I can't be the only one who doesnt remember so it's to remind me, Jicie, Demetri, and Jason (like he'd ever forget, you two are like siamese twins) but first I have to add them //groans\\
I USED to really like bragging that I was the only one that really knew how old you are...and then I realized that your ACTUAL bday is listed on your profile. Damn.
13 DAYS until serene_cj's B-Day
I love ya, baby! //falls over\\
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It's supposed to be the most romantic day of the year or something. What was I doing...I was watching reruns of Dawson's Creek (I always want to call it "Creekside"...my elementary school) How depressing. Somebody must be slipping me drugs in my sleep because really I should be so...cheerful. By all accounts I should be ready throw myself from the roof of my apartment building //shrugs\\
Anyway, I'm watching the show...and studying all fucking day. It's really unrealistic. I know. Duh. But it was pissing me off. Which is not to say I dont love the show because i really do. pathetic or no. But back to the point, I'm studying and watching Joey, Jen, Dawson, and Jack (I don't list Pace here because he doesn't go to college) and I'm watching them skip school and spit in their teacher's faces I swear I've only seen them study like three times (i know it's just a show but i was frustrated and really not thinking about that). Anyhow, they dicked around through highschool (were they ever actually IN class)and there i was sitting on my couch missing my valentines and studying my ass off and wondering how the FUCK all of them got into college. Good colleges, too. It pissed me off. It's probably just frustration and that fucking letter better come soon. //calms down\\
Really, though, I've worked my ass off. I've got a 4.0 (though, probably cant tell from the way i talk), I even learned to play an instrument (cello)...i still cant read the music but if i listen i can play whatever the hell the rest of the class is playing. Grr, I'm frustrated...but still cheerful. Its odd.
Now, off to do more calc that isn't even fucking required. //still cheerful\\
Yeah, buddy, someone has defintely been slipping me drugs.
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[02/14 @ 8:11am] |
Happy Valentines Day!!!!
Roses, kisses, and hugs to all. And I hope you all get laid. //goes to call Sarah\\ Maybe I'll have some nice phone sex.
No. I'm only joking. Or maybe not but whatever
CELEBRATE good times. Or something
Happy fucking Valentines ♥
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Talking to a friend long distance and I've decided I want to go sailing. Yup.
I've just got Four problems: one, no water, Two, even if there was water, it'd be frozen. Three, I don't know how to fucking sail, and Four, no boat.
But I shall make it happen. My bathtub probably isn't big enough, and my roommate would have a shit fit so that's a no go.
There's a pool in our apartment building but, I'm not so sure that be such a good idea if I don't want to get kicked out. I could always dig a hole in the backyard and make a mini lake...but first I have to get a backyard. And I'd need to higher someone 'cause there's no way in hell I'm doing it. Feminist or no, I'm lazy...and it's just not gonna happen. But still I'll make it happen. I WILL become Tia the sailing chick.
Yeah. Pop-eye ain't got shit on me. Teh-heh. But really I want to learn come summer. I just have to force ask someone with a boat to befriend me. And then I'll get over my extreme fear of water. And I'll go sailing.
Maybe I should learn to swim first //thinking\\ Yeah, that might be a good idea. Except, not. I've already tried learning. Took swimming lessons three times in fact. I'm pretty much fucked. But I'm still going sailing, dammit.
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Ha, I luff my new layout. He really is a beautiful boy isn't he? Mmm-hmm, I think he is. Lol, Okay, second time I've posted today. I'm overzealous. Lol
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I finally decided to get an LJ account. I was reluctant to because...well what the fuck was I going to do with one of these? Write about what I did in my day? Well it'd get redundant after one day, I'm not a very interesting person.
Example? Today I ate...slept...worked...checked the mail...I swear if I dont get this letter of acceptance soon, I'll shoot myself...not really but, I'm frustrated. And then I got online to read porn. Lol. But really...then I got online. Tomorrow, I'll start over and do the same again.
So really, using the journal for that just would work out. But a friend convinced me to use it for fandom and all the other bullshit I force on people when I feel like ranting. So, I'll use this journal for that instead. I get enitrely too excited about trivial things like television shows and movies and books and music. It annoys the hell out of a lot of people but...whatever. They'll deal with me anyway.
And you will too...you know you will. Lol
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